"has been pleased"

my reading yesterday came from luke 12:13-53.. and i found it so stunningly appropriate to my life and my lately-realizings of my true views of money. as i am trying to move into this supporting myself phase of life, i have become quite quite worried about it all the time. and Jesus says to not do that. the words about God caring more for birds & lillies was so much more meaningful to me this time around. but even better was this remarkable tidbit i found. it was another one of those "i must have seen it before b/c i've read this passage a gazillion times, but i think i have just now *seen* it" moments. it actually comes right before the verse daniel quoted below, it is vs. 32 "Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom." the entire passage seems to be about trust. do we really trust Him? and it returns to my question before, not about His capability for providing, but His desire.

if i had been with Jesus i would have broke down crying because He hit it right on the head. this verse hit on my key insecurity. does the Father really *want* to provide everything for me? isn't He tired of it? i am mucking around trying to scrap up pennies for myself, when He owns everything.. but does He want to give it to me? and this sentence, not referring just to money but to true wealth, a legacy of all His riches-- a family title, all that is involved with the acceptance of the one Perfect Father to His imperfect children.

this whole experiment has got me limping, not off and running. i am a slow learner with much distance to go. but as a book i read to priscilla yesterday says, to be wise i've got to listen and listen well.